clap, clap

i'm not sure exactly how he learned this, but he did. it makes me wonder what else he's picking up from us.
like the frequency with which i say the f word, the s word, damnit, goddamnit, damnit to hell, hell, what the hell, oh hell and, "WOLLY!! GO. GET. ON. YOUR. BED. .... please." i really hope none of that sinks in before i can alter my behavior. (note to self: alter behavior)
i had a job interview today. i haven't really been looking for a job as it hasn't exactly been our plan for me to have a job. it hasn't exactly not been in our plan either. you know us - this is how we are. basically planless.
anyway, it sounds like a really fun job - planning events for a yoga studio in santa monica. i left t2 with our friend and neighbor pharida and went to see what it was all about. if i'm going to take a job, it's going to be something different, something that challenges me, something i've never done before, something that's very close by and something that i can be happy at because let's face it, if mama ain't happy, nobody's happy.
this job is all of those things.
the weird thing is i have really mixed feelings about it. first, i'm not even sure it's cost effective as we'd have to call in some reinforcements. but more than that, i felt like i was cheating on t2 just going to the interview. like sneaking around behind him, seeking out a new love. it was a pretty rotten feeling.
hi, mom. meet guilt.
at the same time, i felt human again and was reminded that i'm a bright person with a little bit of charm and a nice smile.
i'll know something by the end of the week. until then, i'm surrendering to the universe.